Every once in a while I write something really personal – and today is such day. As I’ve posted earlier on my flicker account, my step dead died a lonesome death. A few weeks have passed and all I can say is that time moves pretty fast. Your Mom gives birth and it’s you – your parents raise you and especially when you’re young – time moves so slow – you can’t become old enougth to early. However – the older one become, the faster lifes moves. Not forgetting: the faster it goes on – the less we do remember certain things. Less we wonder and slowly we loose the ability to be surprised.
This post is personal – as I’ve already mentioned – and I guess I am in the position to say that I’ve matured without becoming old. And for my step dad – I’d arrogate to oneself that i knew him that much, that he was a good person suffered a great burden he was unable to fight. Over a few years he has supported me financially and personal – because as he stated – he was able to at that time. I know he had a good reputation and people liked him for his honesty and the ability to say whats important. The sadly part about it – he wasn’t able to do all the good things to himself – which he adviced to others. It’s always easy to give good advice …
And the good thing is – he’ll be in my heart – forever. No matter how fucked up the situations sometimes was with him … he tought me a few essential things I continue to teach aswell to others:
- have a real opinion
- believe in yourself
- it doesn’t matter what other people say – as long as you don’t betray yourself
In two weeks will be the ceremony and I guess it’s my first funeral after all … and the family will come together – after long period of being not together.
May he rest in peace and whatever he has wished for shall come true in eternity.
Word!
PS: A few links I’ve just discovered about him (in german):



