Every once in a while I write something really personal – and today is such day. As I’ve posted earlier on my flicker account, my step dead died a lonesome death. A few weeks have passed and all I can say is that time moves pretty fast. Your Mom gives birth and it’s you – your parents raise you and especially when you’re young – time moves so slow – you can’t become old enougth to early. However – the older one become, the faster lifes moves. Not forgetting: the faster it goes on – the less we do remember certain things. Less we wonder and slowly we loose the ability to be surprised.

This post is personal – as I’ve already mentioned – and I guess I am in the position to say that I’ve matured without becoming old. And for my step dad – I’d arrogate to oneself that i knew him that much, that he was a good person suffered a great burden he was unable to fight. Over a few years he has supported me financially and personal – because as he stated – he was able to at that time. I know he had a good reputation and people liked him for his honesty and the ability to say whats important. The sadly part about it – he wasn’t able to do all the good things to himself – which he adviced to others. It’s always easy to give good advice …

And the good thing is – he’ll be in my heart – forever. No matter how fucked up the situations sometimes was with him … he tought me a few essential things I continue to teach aswell to others:

• have a real opinion
• believe in yourself
• it doesn’t matter what other people say – as long as you don’t betray yourself

In two weeks will be the ceremony and I guess it’s my first funeral after all … and the family will come together – after long period of being not together.

May he rest in peace and whatever he has wished for shall come true in eternity.
Word!

PS: A few links I’ve just discovered about him (in german):

• abendblatt about his death notice and obituary
• grüne wedel (scroll down to Bernd Reifhardt) about his political career
• abendblatt about his political retirement in 2002

Since the world of a bits and bytes consumes a lot of time, I’ve bought some new books, to clear my mind from code and graphics. The first one I’d like to introduce is by G. Edward Griffin and entitled “The Creature From Jekyll Island” – and it is the story about the federal reserve bank/system, the world bank group and also the International Monetary Fund (IMF aka in Germany IWF). It “tells” you where the money comes from, which ways it goes and where it possibly ends. I’m on page 160 and it’s a thrilling one.

The other one is by John N. Demos, getting started with neurofeedback. Since I am interested in this topic for more than 10 years I am really lucky that I’ve found that one. I’ve scanned it only just – but it seems to be a good book, because it seems to be well written, in an easy language without being flat nor to trivial. I guess this book addresses not the average folk – but if you are interested into brain waves, its meaning and how to “change” em – this book could be an option for you

It’s late – gotta sleep now

I’m currently trying to get some multi step/wirzard forms in Zend done and it seems to work as far as I can tell. I’ve used this little class as inspiration and it works so far.

I really like multi step forms as user but as developer I hate em. Nevertheless it’s 1:40am/Saturday and I am doing stuff for work. Actually I should go out and do party but that is not the case and so I code.

Oh ya – at least I did /some/ tagging, when I went to the grocery and there are still /some/ beers in the fridge.

cheers!

A few days ago I got a private message via meinvz.net and a girl, possibly with japanese ancestory asked me a few thing that only a very few people could possibly know about and if we could meet soon. That sounded strange and even herself pointed out, that it might sounds “strange”. A vague idea came up to my mind of what it might could be, but it made it less strange.

Flashback: In 2001 I met my real dad for the first and last time, by ambushing him in Poland, Brzeziny, without a warning. He was thunderstruck by seeing me but after an expensive redwine I brought along and a couple of beer he became talkactive and so we talked. One of my questions was, if I have some siblings but he negated it. I was not sure if he was talking the truth, but I was fine with that answer, whereas I wished he would have said the opposite. [...] after a couple of beer and a slight drunkenness we decided to stay over night and go to sleep. On the next mornign we got up early and decided to leave early aswell. He asked if we could stay a little longer, but we had rented a room in an international student hotel and had to leave.

Today I’ve met my youngest sister and her Mom! I do not only have one silbing, nope – two younger sisters. Okay – half-sisters but to me it means I have two sisters now and one brother. Yay and that’s so cool! The uberstrange thing about it is – they always lived here – where I live for about 7 years now. Just around the corner. The one lives just 300 m around the block and the other will move there too in a short time.

The tragic part about this story is, our chichi(jap. f. Dad) has no friggin kudos.

ok, i’ll give it a try!
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it was time for a change – so I’ve made a new theme for my blog. Nothing special but it looks quite ok (haven’t tested it in IE, I don’t care bout it – but in safari, firefox, chrome and opera it looks good). At least YSlow say it has Grade B and if only the google syntax highlighter plugin would produce valid xhtml, then it would be valid …

I just came back from a short trip to Hamburg and Schleswig-Holstein. Actually it was my Moms bday and I bought her some stuff for the kitchen and I hope she will enjoy the designer pepper mill On Sunday we went to the Arboretum (some sort of a botanical garden), which is a really nice place, although there is a small fee to pay. There’s a little lake with lotus, water lilies and koi fish. I took some pics with my phone, so if you’re interested you can get a picture

There are some things I really dislike and one of that are «anonymous calls» and because of that I’ve installed iCall Manager on my Blackberry and tada – it works. All incoming anonymous calls gets now rejected. Good bye whoeveryouare!

It was time to get a new mobile phone so I’ve choosen the BlackBerry Bold 9000 for 89,- EUR and hope it will be delivered until tomorrow. I guess I will not use all the fancy features it claims to provide but it’s good to know I could if I would like to. – Nah, I will use some of them for sure, like the GPS + Maps, email, 2MP Cam, IM stuff, Organizer, Browser and of course I’ll use it primary as phone

Also I’ve canceled the 16mbit / VOIP Alice Contract and ordered a VDSL 25 MBIT/ISDN line from t-kom and hope we’ll get it until next month.

Also I’ve installed chrome, googles new browser but more importantly it seems to me that googles war against MS reaches another level. I wonder what MS will be in two years. MS loses constant market share in the browser business and I’ll be surprised about the Moz Foundation and google corporation in the future. Firefox has meanwhile a good share with ~20% and as someone mentioned some weeks ago, every laptop above 1000 USD is a Mac. Yarr, and there is no IE since 5.5 for the Mac and every development ist discontinued. Thus I assume that the IE will no more be the browser to develop for (primary) in future, because it will be just one amongst of many. And! If the antitrust law finaly forbid the bundling of Browser/OS – then a long fought war is eventually won!

However!

Updates may also appear in the real world and yesterday I’ve (managed to) updated my competent revenue authorities with the “est”, “gse” and “n” Papers, without any assistance … *sigh* :p

It took us quite a while until we were all satisfied but now it’s done and you can view it over here:

» http://areal-records.com/

The site relies on prototype, some web 2.0 gimmickry, scriptaculous and the pear framework, a wonderful combine script for CSS and JS. Firefox 3 still needs some »pimping« but for all the other browsers it should work fine, as far as I can tell.

It’s midnight.