This post is personal – as I’ve already mentioned – and I guess I am in the position to say that I’ve matured without becoming old. And for my step dad – I’d arrogate to oneself that i knew him that much, that he was a good person suffered a great burden he was unable to fight. Over a few years he has supported me financially and personal – because as he stated – he was able to at that time. I know he had a good reputation and people liked him for his honesty and the ability to say whats important. The sadly part about it – he wasn’t able to do all the good things to himself – which he adviced to others. It’s always easy to give good advice …

And the good thing is – he’ll be in my heart – forever. No matter how fucked up the situations sometimes was with him … he tought me a few essential things I continue to teach aswell to others:

• have a real opinion
• believe in yourself
• it doesn’t matter what other people say – as long as you don’t betray yourself

In two weeks will be the ceremony and I guess it’s my first funeral after all … and the family will come together – after long period of being not together.

May he rest in peace and whatever he has wished for shall come true in eternity.
Word!

PS: A few links I’ve just discovered about him (in german):

• abendblatt about his death notice and obituary
• grüne wedel (scroll down to Bernd Reifhardt) about his political career
• abendblatt about his political retirement in 2002

The other one is by John N. Demos, getting started with neurofeedback. Since I am interested in this topic for more than 10 years I am really lucky that I’ve found that one. I’ve scanned it only just – but it seems to be a good book, because it seems to be well written, in an easy language without being flat nor to trivial. I guess this book addresses not the average folk – but if you are interested into brain waves, its meaning and how to “change” em – this book could be an option for you

It’s late – gotta sleep now

I really like multi step forms as user but as developer I hate em. Nevertheless it’s 1:40am/Saturday and I am doing stuff for work. Actually I should go out and do party but that is not the case and so I code.

Oh ya – at least I did /some/ tagging, when I went to the grocery and there are still /some/ beers in the fridge.

cheers!

Flashback: In 2001 I met my real dad for the first and last time, by ambushing him in Poland, Brzeziny, without a warning. He was thunderstruck by seeing me but after an expensive redwine I brought along and a couple of beer he became talkactive and so we talked. One of my questions was, if I have some siblings but he negated it. I was not sure if he was talking the truth, but I was fine with that answer, whereas I wished he would have said the opposite. [...] after a couple of beer and a slight drunkenness we decided to stay over night and go to sleep. On the next mornign we got up early and decided to leave early aswell. He asked if we could stay a little longer, but we had rented a room in an international student hotel and had to leave.

Today I’ve met my youngest sister and her Mom! I do not only have one silbing, nope – two younger sisters. Okay – half-sisters but to me it means I have two sisters now and one brother. Yay and that’s so cool! The uberstrange thing about it is – they always lived here – where I live for about 7 years now. Just around the corner. The one lives just 300 m around the block and the other will move there too in a short time.

The tragic part about this story is, our chichi(jap. f. Dad) has no friggin kudos.

Also I’ve canceled the 16mbit / VOIP Alice Contract and ordered a VDSL 25 MBIT/ISDN line from t-kom and hope we’ll get it until next month.

Also I’ve installed chrome, googles new browser but more importantly it seems to me that googles war against MS reaches another level. I wonder what MS will be in two years. MS loses constant market share in the browser business and I’ll be surprised about the Moz Foundation and google corporation in the future. Firefox has meanwhile a good share with ~20% and as someone mentioned some weeks ago, every laptop above 1000 USD is a Mac. Yarr, and there is no IE since 5.5 for the Mac and every development ist discontinued. Thus I assume that the IE will no more be the browser to develop for (primary) in future, because it will be just one amongst of many. And! If the antitrust law finaly forbid the bundling of Browser/OS – then a long fought war is eventually won!

However!

Updates may also appear in the real world and yesterday I’ve (managed to) updated my competent revenue authorities with the “est”, “gse” and “n” Papers, without any assistance … *sigh* :p

» http://areal-records.com/

The site relies on prototype, some web 2.0 gimmickry, scriptaculous and the pear framework, a wonderful combine script for CSS and JS. Firefox 3 still needs some »pimping« but for all the other browsers it should work fine, as far as I can tell.

It’s midnight.

Note: I had to pay 20 Euro tariff for 5 T-Shirts.

The only reason I’ve noticed them is, our balcony doors are next to each other and both are wide open. But for my excuse, I’m still fixing a database – or better said, I do a modification. for writershops.com I use the world DB from MySQL plus an extra column for the CIA facts book country code. However, I’m still thinking about to extend it with postal codes and make it public to everyone. Maybe. Time-management is not one of my primary attributes so far.

Tomorrow we have “beer and sausage” at our company, which is quite cool – I mean the fact that we do such things on company time and money. Each first Friday on every new month one department is organizing this little event. Last time we had Becks, this time we’ll have Berliner and sausages.

However (I love this word), I’m currently working on a new JavaScript lib, with a carousel, an interactive navigation and some tab switcher, a lightbox, some fx wrapper and other stuff, based on prototype and scriptaculous. That it nothing phenomenal, but I try to keep it slick as possible and of course flexible. ATM you still can apply any function to the callback functions »beforeStart« and »afterFinish«, via one method call. I’ll post the code when I’ve got something like a milestone release, which seems to be end of July.

I’ve ordered 5 new shirts at threadless.com again and I’m looking forward to wear em.

The Beginning

Tools Of The Trade

Fake Pandas Have More Fun

No More Bento

Terrible Wonderful Strange

On the way back we’ll visit my family, especially my Grandma, Mom and Cousin, because I haven’t seen them for quite a while. I guess 2 Years for now and plus that: my Dear haven’t seen Hamburg yet! Haha, that’s a lot of things to do in just 5 Days. 3 Cities and approximately 1.000 km by car – but the beach will excuse everything

I also feel very comfortable in my new cargo pants (carhartt) and white addidas superstars (v2) …

However – it is Wendsday and I should continue to work on the site mentioned above. The sun IS still shining! ^^

Click here to view the embedded video.

In 10 days I will move together with my sweetheart to our new home and this is something I’ve captured out of my window, when we got the new keys.

* geology
* damn scientists
* A salt and battery

but for somehow – I’m tired as fuck and could sleep as long like I were already dead – until infinite. I wonder why. Maybe it has something to do with the Antibiotics – but Jeez(!) We’re going later to the areal label night at the Watergate. Luckily(!) we’re all on the list, so we don’t have to wait ATM, I don’t feel like party that much – actually not at all – but a couple of Beer will may change my mind.

Ah yeah and I’ve bought a new bike, but not as shown on the site in violet. It’s dark Grey. Oh and before I forget it, I’ve gave Marcels and my demo tunes to Sebastian and I am really curious what he will say. At least he likes his new website and that make me feel happy as well.

However – Last but not least – never forget; that music is egoism.

Marcel finally have his first release on iconise with a remix of Tala’s »Mandragora« and if everything works out fine, he’ll release his second tune on iconise aswell and if I can manage my spare time better, I’ll do a remix. However, I’m not sure what I’m going to do with it. I’ve already started »something«, but it sounds to overloaded and ordinary.

But it is Friday and some people might suggest to do party, get wasted and at least stay not at home but I really enjoy the peace of being alone today. There’s no need for me today to go excited. I am at peace with my own state of mind and looking forward to see my girl tomorrow, meet her sister for the first time and Nina again (she is a very kind person and before she goes back to São Paulo), wake up not to late and maybe find some interesting ad for a new flat for Steffi and me.

I should go to sleep soon – but I guess I’ll have one more beer and then…..